Nights

Where you sit up watching the whites of your eyes turn red.

So how can you get up when you never went to bed.

it was a series of goodbyes

and not

see you later

Empty

I feel so empty and numb.

I didn’t think anything could be worst than being so low until there was nothing at all.

Touch me

And peel away my skin

Until I’m bones

And there’s nothing left

Grab handfuls of my hair

Pull gently

Tear it away piece by piece

Until there’s nothing left

And see what I am.

I’m just a girl

Standing in front of a boy

Asking to feel something.

So dig your nails into my back

And peel away

Until you see

There’s nothing left

A victim of theft

Hearts depart

While airplanes start

To be free, to be sold

To be killed, to be saved

In my head, I’m alone

I’m not dead, I’m ashamed

Just like you, I’ve been trying to escape

In my bones, I feel cold

I give thanks to the Lord

Industry

In this streets

Keep me close, let me be

I don’t need to be here

I don’t know

Can’t you see? Can’t you see?

Tonight I happened upon an old sweatshirt under my bed. It was all packed up in a box and when I opened it, it still smelled like you. I sobbed wondering how that was possible and if I ever won’t miss you.

I want to be the lights

That emulate from the city skyline

For an onlooker that drives over the bridge

To be a part of something

A kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder

And now it’s me

Biting my tongue

Crying when I pass the young

Thinking about what is and what should never be

Or what would be

Or what we could be

Mental trails, physical miles

Oceans apart and still so close to my heart

I only write about you

The only time everything feels true

Is the concrete all around or just in my head